My thoughts are stars...

...I cannot fathom into constellations. 
-John Green via Augustus Waters

That's exactly how I've been feeling lately. At times my mind is moving a million miles an hour and I get all these great project ideas or general creativity bursts, but as soon as I've had time to relax and unwind and find a notebook to write them all down in, they're gone. My brain just stops. I guess I get overwhelmed by everything and shut off. And of course this isn't just a recreational creativity thing; it's also had a huge impact of my work life.

Until now (today, specifically) I haven't known what to do about it, but at work today I had a bit of a meltdown in front of my boss regarding the issues discussed in this post, and despite his tendency to talk and talk and not let me get a word in edgewise, I was able to convey to him all the feelings I didn't even realize I was having about my internship. Talking to him and more so listening to his perspective on my time with the company has helped me work out where I want to go from here. I'm not going to go into the details, because frankly I haven't figured them all out yet, but I definitely feel like I'm taking steps in the right direction.

Then a similar thing just happened/is currently happening with my roommate Ally. We're both posted up in a coffee shop in the East Village discussing blogging while simultaneously actually blogging. We've been talking about having great ideas about blog posts and instagrams we think of during the work day, then by the time we get back home, we've lost creativity and/or motivation (not to mention energy). It's like my brain has only two gears: hurricane and sloth. No matter how many sticky notes, electronic and paper, I write myself or notes written on my phone, most of my ideas just fizzle out to nothing.

The point I'm trying to make is that when this happens to me, the best thing I can do for myself is to talk through my thoughts with someone whose opinion I respect and value. By sitting down and sorting through the mental static, I'm able to identify specific goals, and figure out what steps need to be taken to achieve them.

Stay tuned for more meta coffee shop posts ;)

KB

P.S.: This is the instagram I posted while writing this post.